I turned my head to the left
And there he was..
My eyes wide open..
His face.. his hair..
It was him.
And my heart stops beating..
After all this time.. almost 4 years
It was still like someone have thrown a knife into my heart
To split it in billions of pieces
Lying on the floor.
I never thought
That only 15 seconds..
15 fucking seconds..
Could change my whole day.
I never thought that he..
could still change it.
I wasn’t myself anymore..
Was starring straight to something else far away.
My heart hurt.. I felt like I would explode..
My mind was gone..
I regret that I was only starring at him..
A piece of me wanted to run to him..
Screaming his name..
Want to look into his eyes.. again..
Only for 1 second..
To get a salvation.
The final salvation..
But I let this moment passing by..
And I’m still feeling like I want to run away..
Far away.. away from this pain.
‘Cause after loving you.. I can never be the same.
© Jane - 6. Oktober 2010